It is definitely not about what I have or have not said about the father. I never spoke about the Father to my child. I only ask "What did you do with your Dad this week." And I have always supported her relationship with her Father. I do have a proper grasp of what truly constitutes abuse, neglect and violence and I am absolutely certain that I have been unfairly cast into that category, of which I truly do not belong. There is no place in my world for belonging in that category. And I refuse to support them by doing supervised contact because I do not belong in that category so why should I live the existence of it. Why should I be watched and have notes taken like I am some sort of freak. My child will wonder in her mind what I have done that is so awful that people need to take notes. And they do not allow you to cuddle your child. There is no physical contact allowed. I am not a freak. I refuse to be treated like one. I say My Child because when [name of child] was with me, she was my child. The Father and I do not communicate. We are parallel parents. He has Aspergers and is unable to communicate with me. There is no "We". There never was a "We". It was always me and [name of child]. He would just sit at his computer and ignore me and [name of child] throughout the entire marriage. I was her sole companion. I am not belittling him, I just have the guts to say the truth in this forum. I have been gagged by people like you who will not let me have a voice to say what needs to be said. He is not her companion and never will be. In his mind, he is at his computer and she is in her bedroom watching tv where she truly belongs and you can add head phones to that. He cannot tolerate the sound of the tv. The house must be silent. He forces her to watch tv with headphones on. He lives in his own little world. He doesn't understand about "We" and "Us". If that means I am not allowed to be her Mother because I refuse to be gagged, then so be it. Nine more years and I can see her on my own terms, not on the terms dictated to me by him, the Magistrate, The Psychologist, the Department of Child Protection (who by the way completed their assessment and found his allegations of child abuse hold no foundation). I would pick up the phone and ring him tomorrow if I could. I would happily be one of his best friends who he can always lean on, get support from, and be cared by. I would happily drop into his home, have a coffee with him and totally support his every move. I would bend over backwards for him. But I am not welcome in his home. I am not welcome to contact him. I am not welcome to visit him family. I have been cast out, demonised, bullied and controlled. There is no "We". You seem to have issues with "We". He has issues with "We". I do not have any issues with "We". I never have.